\ˈgilt\

Definition of GUILT

1

: the fact of having committed a breach of conduct especially violating law and involving a penalty; broadly : guilty conduct

2

a : the state of one who has committed an offense especially consciously

b : feelings of culpability especially for imagined offenses or from a sense of inadequacy : self reproach

3

: a feeling of culpability for offenses

This word is too much a part of my life.  Everywhere I look, or go I feel the GUILT.  Uggh!  I can't tell you how much I hate this.  Well I am done with this!  GUILT is not my friend, and I really don't have time or energy to have it in my life.

Before I can get rid of GUILT, I have to get rid of PERFECTIONISM.  If I didn't have an unhealthy belief in perfectionism, GUILT wouldn't hang around me.

Sure I could list here the things that are weighing on my mind that are causing me GUILT, but really what good would that do?

So here I will just put my apology.  To all those who I have let down, who are waiting for me or wanting something for me, who I have let down or disappointed.  I am deeply sorry. I am sorry I couldn't live up to your expectations. I am sorry I let you down.

GUILT won't leave me if I keep feeding it.  NO MORE.  I will do what I can.  I will do what is reasonable and leave the craziness of being perfect alone.

One step at a time, one task at a time I will move forward.  I will get where I need to be, but it will be slower and it will NOT be PERFECT.  I have kicked GUILT out of my car, I am picking up my friend JOY.

EnJOYing the moments!