Definition of GUILT
a : the state of one who has committed an offense especially consciously
: the fact of having committed a breach of conduct especially violating law and involving a penalty; broadly : guilty conduct
b : feelings of culpability especially for imagined offenses or from a sense of inadequacy : self reproach
: a feeling of culpability for offenses
This word is too much a part of my life. Everywhere I look, or go I feel the GUILT. Uggh! I can't tell you how much I hate this. Well I am done with this! GUILT is not my friend, and I really don't have time or energy to have it in my life.
Before I can get rid of GUILT, I have to get rid of PERFECTIONISM. If I didn't have an unhealthy belief in perfectionism, GUILT wouldn't hang around me.
Sure I could list here the things that are weighing on my mind that are causing me GUILT, but really what good would that do?
So here I will just put my apology. To all those who I have let down, who are waiting for me or wanting something for me, who I have let down or disappointed. I am deeply sorry. I am sorry I couldn't live up to your expectations. I am sorry I let you down.
GUILT won't leave me if I keep feeding it. NO MORE. I will do what I can. I will do what is reasonable and leave the craziness of being perfect alone.
One step at a time, one task at a time I will move forward. I will get where I need to be, but it will be slower and it will NOT be PERFECT. I have kicked GUILT out of my car, I am picking up my friend JOY.
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